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time.

it goes by so fast.

it goes by too slow.

for me im at a soid speed. its slow, but steady. but im ready to make use of my own time.

a while ago, a long time ago. i was so depressed, so unhappy. i had nothing in my life but time. time to do nothing. cause really, what could i do? i hated my family situation, my friends, school, no hobbies nothing. thinking back i dont know how i made it, and when i truely think about it, i really didnt. everyday was literally a struggle for me to live. and recently ive been feeling this way again. i dont know what it is, but i feel the same as before. like i have no one to talk to, no one who cares. and i know that i do have friends that are there to listen but its just to hard for me to say what i need to. i need to tell someone how i feel but i cant. my problems dont even compare to others. i mean nadas mom is dead. her dad told her on her moms one yeah death aniiversary that hes getting remarried. krystals mom..gone. my friends have divorced parents, a million younger hated siblings, and a few are living paycheck to paycheck. and whats wrong with me? im just not happy. i hate my parents. they hate each other. they might as well get divorced. and as for siblings. mine are perfect. older. gorgeous. successful. one has her own beautiful family. what do i have? nothing. im the failure of the family. dont believe me? ask my mom. and living paycheck to paycheck? well im almost there folks. septemeber tenth 2008 i was told that i need to be packed up and gone...and so the paycheck living begins.